Let it rain

If I knew how I would tell you something, but it is not my place to tell you. Shucks.
By the bye, your conscience is in my head, and I don't want it. You can have it back. I want to go home to school so this doesn't distract me so much. Funny, because when I was at school I was excited to come home for Christmas so the same thing wouldn't distract me there. I just can't get away from myself.
I've had a song in my head the last few days, pretty much it's singing back there ever since we were driving home from Hershey. It's by Switchfoot, and it reminds me of... stuff.

Face down with the LA curbside ending
In the ones and zeros
Downtown was the perfect place to hide
The first star that I saw last night was a headlight
of a man-made sky, but
Man-made never made our dreams collide, collide
Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, but you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, We're awakening
Last week saw me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky
but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And in all my life I don't know that I've ever felt so alive, alive
Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, but you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, We're awakening
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to know that my heart's still beating,
It's beating,
I'm bleeding.
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I'm leaving
I want to know that my heart's still beating,
Is beating,
Is beating,
It's beating,
I'm bleeding
Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, but you've been talk, talking in your sleep
About a dream,
We're awakening a dream,
We're awakening