Sunday, December 28, 2008

I'm such a sucker sometimes

Christmas with the family... good times, but too much food and too many people. I'm far too lazy for this exercise regime we've been given. I'll do it though - I like playing basketball. It was always the only sport I was ever half decent at. It sucks this time though because I am forced to choose between basketball and kids club. That was hard.
I'm starting to annoy myself. It happens now and again. And I'm frustrated that I am not spiritually how I want to be, but I can't seem to change that. Oh, wait, God's supposed to do it. I suck at letting Him. I don't know how this works but I want it, I want to live in the Spirit and have Him live in me so others can see. How does one accomplish living in God when one has trouble just living? Besides God, I don't know how I'm alive. How do I surrender myself completely to Him then? I feel trapped in a conundrum and I have no idea how to get out. The irony of this is that God is the only One who can get me out. Hallelujah.

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