Exegesis

I am very frustrated with my mind. It is driving me insane. Why do I think things that I do not want to think, why must these things keep on coming back? I have tried and tried to get this out of my head. Yet I surrender to it time and again. What is with this? Why must I always be going slightly mad?
By the bye, I am likely not working at camp this summer, which is exceedingly disappointing. I applied at the flour mill where my dad works, which would be a good job that pays well. However, it would require all 4 months of summer, and therefore I could not work at camp. If I do not get the job I will hopefully spend my summer making very little money, instead of lots.
Less than a month of school left. Then home. Home is good. Where is home?
I'm going insane.

Purple flowers don't last

Exhaustion. It rattles my brain and pokes holes in my thoughts. My body is a little sore but not too bad. There's this kid from town I keep running into at the most random times. I like him, he's cute. We have the occasional conversation. He's interesting. On a different note, when the Nicaragua team came home a couple weeks ago, I realized something that I have since been half-heartedly trying to suppress. I'm scared of it. But there's nothing I can do about it so I'll leave it be and see what happens, if anything. Now THAT would be interesting.