The opposite of color

Eifersüchtig? Ja, aber nicht für der Grund du denkst. Ich weiß du macht nicht.

Daisy, give yourself away
Look up at the rain, the beautiful display
Of power and surrender, giving us today
And she gives herself away
Rain, another rainy day, comes up from the ocean
Gives herself away, she comes down easy
Are rich and debt the same?
And she gives herself away
Let it go, Daisy, let it go
Open up your fist, this fallen world
Doesn't hold your interest, it doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go
Pain, give yourself a name
Call yourself contrition, avarice or blame
Giving isn't easy, neither is the rain
When she gives herself away
Daisy, why another day?
Why another sunrise? who will take the blame
For all redemptive motion, and every rainy day
When He gives Himself away
Let it go Daisy, let it go
Open up your fist, this fallen world
Doesn't hold your interest
Doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go

Growing up

Something occurred to me today. If Lucy had met the White Witch before she met Mr. Tumnus, would she have been the traitor? It gets hard to tell which side is in the right if you go at it without knowing Mr. Tumnus first.
Next question. Say one were to really want something and pray and pray about it, and God says "Wait". So one waits and it works out, and later, months later, one was to want the same thing again, and pray and pray about it. Would God say no? If so, why didn't He say no the first time around? It is greatly frustrating when God says nothing at all, although logically I know there is nothing yet to say.

Crazy? I was crazy once

I have discovered what I want in life. I want to be a mother. That is my goal in life. I had a dream last night that I had 3 girls already and was pregnant again because my husband wanted a boy. I thought of it today, if I get married before I'm 21 years old, I can have 8 children by the time I'm 35 and they won't be awkwardly older than one another. It really wouldn't be that hard. Sometimes there are things that I want very badly. I am not sure whether these things are right or wrong and God has decided to be silent on the subject for the time being. One of the great things about camp is that one can really get to know God in a very easy way, He's right there all the time. Not that He isn't other times, just at Redberry you can feel it all the time. That doesn't mean I always do the right thing, it's hard. But there are some things I want very badly, some things I am doing that I have wanted to for a long time. But God is still quiet with his opinion. The Bible, I am learning, does not answer everything. There are gray areas that only God can answer. So we wait.