Missing you already

I hit the ditch on Circle Drive on Friday night, or rather, very early Saturday morning. A tow truck randomly showed up and pulled me out. The weather was very bad that night. I got to Joeline's house at 1:30 in the morning, after not being able to find it, and then I cried. And then it was better, and I had a great evening. We had a sleepover with about 25 people, mostly in the living room area. We went home for brunch in the morning. School is over now and I'm home in Dalmeny, but I already miss my home in Bethany. I miss the people and the atmosphere and the community. Even (dare I say it?) the classes. Next year it will be different. There will be different people and people won't be there that I will want to be there. It won't be bad, just different. I love too easily, and then it hurts when I lose. But I refuse to stop loving.
This summer I'm working in Saskatoon, with my dad, at the flour mill. No camp for Teri. Which I am becoming okay with, slowly. I'm called to the city, I've realized that lately. That's the rest of my life. And I can't do that at camp. It's still hard but it's getting there. There's joy in the brokenness.
There's a song by Newsboys, who I generally don't like, that I love. The chorus goes "It's all God's children singing 'Glory Glory Hallelujah He reigns'" and it's true. He does reign. There's another song by Aaron Shust which is amazing, called My Savior My God. And these are the lyrics:
I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior
I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me; this I read
And in my heart I find a need
Of Him to be my savior
That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior
My Savior loves, my Savior lives
My Savior’s always there for me
My God: He was, my God: He is
My God is always gonna be
Yes, living, dying, let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring;
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior
That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior
My Savior loves, my Savior loves
My Savior's always there for me
My God He was, my God He is
My God is always gonna be