Thursday, December 22, 2005

My mind understands what my heart cannot

Why does no one cheer for the Boston Bruins?!?!?! They are fricking awesome!
What are 3 words or phrases that describe you?

Christmas holidays have officially started today, and I have to say, I'm already excited for school to start again. It's not just me being a keener, either. I honestly prefer school to holidays. The only good "holiday" is summer, because I'm usually around people then, at camp, in the orchard, etc. I'm not alone. I've been in a funny mood all afternoon. I want it to snow. I want cold. I like cold. And wind. It covers you. I'll wax poetic on you if I'm not careful. Sorry. This afternoon, I realized that I can't begrudge people their choices when I have no power over it. It's not fair. And if you know what the title of this post means, don't say anything, cause I don't want the whole world to know, but it has to do with me realizing I can't hold on to shadows forever. No matter what my heart says, there has to be some point where I let go and forget. Some things are too far in the past to be logical anymore. I honestly don't know what to do because I've tried multiple times to let go and yet this still simmers on the back burner of my mind.

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