I have 3 titles for this post...

1. It's 11:11 pm and my life is laid out before my eyes
2. Moonlight streaming through the window...
3. Excruciating Joy

The moon shines through the window and I can feel your presence. So happy tonight I’m about to die. The fire burns ever higher, licking away at my sores. I cried out to You tonight and You heard me, and I prayed for you tonight and He heard me.

Tonight I went to a evangelical meeting, in a bingo hall of all places. On 20th street. ‘twas eye-opening. We sang some songs first and ended with
Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom power and love
Our God is an awesome God
And after that a guy got up to speak and there was a lot of hallelujahs and amens and Todd Bentley, some famous speaker, was supposed to be there but he was stuck in Chicago, which I thought was hilarious, so this other guy spoke and he talked about how God ate with sinners and didn’t bother with the rich and proper folk. How God will always come in if you ask Him and sometimes He invites Himself. And afterward a bunch of people went to the front and accepted Christ, which was really cool, and then the most interesting part. Healing. You heard me. People went up and got prayed over and all sorts of things happened. There were people lying on the ground and kneeling and the laying on of hands and getting healed. There was one guy on the stage and he said that God had shown him that there was someone in the audience who had come in with a sore ankle that hurt them all the time and sure enough there was a little old lady who had come in with a hurting ankle and she stood up and it was gone. The best thing was when the guy on stage said ‘there’s someone here tonight who’s thinking about suicide. You’ve come in thinking that if something doesn’t happen you’re going to kill yourself. God wants you free from those thoughts. Come up on the stage.’ And this boy about in his teens goes up on stage. The guy had described him exactly right. It was really cool.