Jesus' blood never failed me yet

"I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
I sought the company of fools instead of friends
You know I've been unfaithful
with lovers in lines
while You're turning over tables
with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
thought that love would never find
hanging ropes will never keep You
and your love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind
trying to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
for solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
than be broken by a lover I don't understand
'cause I don't understand
love of a jealous kind, yeah
love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind
one hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
if I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
and love that shames the wise
betrays the hearts deceit and lies
and breaks the back of foolish pride
love of a jealous kind"

"It's just enough to be strong in the broken places, should the world rely on faith tonight"
He loves me. HE loves me. He LOVES me. He loves ME. He thinks I'm beautiful, scars and all. He wants to love me. He loves me forever and ever and ever and ever. And ever. Why is this so hard to grasp? Why do I suck at loving him back?