Monday, November 20, 2006

You know you can dance here

I know I've posted a lot in the past couple days, but this occurred to me today and I thought I should write it...

In the past, I always hated myself. The way I looked, the way I acted, who I was. So I wore a mask and screwed myself over, until I was so far gone I forgot where I came from and who I actually was. This is bad. Don't do it, it hurts more than it ought to and the pain is entirely unnecessary, you bring it on yourself. Anyway, this summer, that changed, starting in Philadelphia when I fell in love and continuing on at camp when I LITed and learned that people are amazing and that I have the best LIT group ever. And so I became myself this summer and it shows, I can see it. I'm happier now than I ever was before, and I care so much less what people think of me. Now I can dance.
And today I looked in the mirror and decided I was beautiful. Not in a cocky way, you understand, but for the first time in as long as I can remember, and we all know that's a long time, I liked the way I looked, and didn't hate myself for being me. I'll never be a head-turner but I really don't care and I won't change the way I am to try to be. That's really all that happened to me today, I decided I was beautiful. Sorry for getting you all excited.

4 comments:

Breanne said...

Aw, I feel all warm and fuzzy for you!

christine said...

Teri!
You ARE a beautiful girl, and don't let anybody tell you otherwise. If it helps, ask God to give you His eyes. That is, to see ppl, yourself, and circomstances the way that He would see them. ...that's all i have to say!
Adios me amigo
christine

christine said...

Teri!
You ARE a beautiful girl, and don't let anybody tell you otherwise. If it helps, ask God to give you His eyes. That is, to see ppl, yourself, and circomstances the way that He would see them. ...that's all i have to say!
Adios me amigo
christine

Anonymous said...

:)