Wednesday, September 20, 2006

I can't forgive myself

What hurts more,
A knife cold and sharp on my skin
Or your words cold and sharp on my soul?
Which scars fade
Which pain leaves my lying awake at night
Wondering how there are so many facets of you to deal with
And how many wounds time won't heal
How many times your words make me cry
So all I want tonight
Is for someone to hold me
Rock me until I fall asleep
And tell me everything'll be alright
This pain doesn't last forever
Soon you'll be happy again
Without you tearing me apart
Broken, but never good enough for you

So today was the most frustrating day ever and I still don't know what to think about you. At times you're so kind and you even apologize, but then you go back and cut me down again. Pile my own stupidity and damn stubbornness on top of that and I don't know what to do anymore. It's days like today...

My hands are cold
My head is hot
This fever's old
Yet I am not...

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