Ah, frick. Poetry RAMPAGE

Where you are is so far different from where you could be

Running, searching, desperately wishing
You could find yourself before you lose again
Hanging on to your senses
As you're plunged into the strange world
You chose.
Seeking through the fog
The pieces of your soul
Clinging madly to your senses
As you forget the way home
Calling, living, dying
As you yearn to leave.
Nothing more than hopeless
You scream.




I feel like pouring out my heartbut the only words I have
are these songs running through my head
So I bite back the things I feel, tasting my tongue-blood
Reverting to the words in my mind
which pour out like a waterfall
Tumbling over one another, around, over and over
What I want to say forming in mind but not releasing
Rushing around, what is there to say,
all I have are these songs
Watch as you leave again, I still haven't asked
why you picked me over all





Time

Time is passing
Quick, quick, quicker
And as we grow older
I miss you more and more
This world keeps on turning
We live our quiet little lives
A flash, a breath, and we are gone
Impacting each other’s eternity
Moment by moment
We’re not here all that long
And I only knew you for a week
But you left an imprint on my heart
So here I am
Hoping against hope
That I can say ‘I love you’
Before time has gone





Damage

Do you realize what you’re doing?
Can you understand what’s happening to me?
Rejection
Abandonment
And all I wanted was acceptance
So ‘I’ll show you damage’
Cut cut cut cut
Now I’m in tatters
Opened for you to see
Exactly what you’ve done to me




Forgotten

My friend,
I don’t suppose
You remember me
Laughing here, all those long years ago
Laughing by your side, short times ago
I can’t suppose
You remember me
Playing here, time and time again
Playing alongside you, laughing in time’s face
I won’t suppose
You remember me
Crying here, over many years, many hurts, many tears
Crying for and with you, many years past
I shouldn’t suppose
You remember me
Hurting here, my pain and yours was great
Hurting here, praying for a light
I mustn’t suppose
You remember me
Leaving here, dark as shadow and quicksilver fast
Leaving here, betraying my dearest love, my home
So I’m begging you
To only remember me as
One of the
Forgotten





Over Again

What have I done?
Take out my pain
On you
You’re not innocent
And your anger will rage
Cut me down, laugh
All over again
I can’t do a thing about it
I’m so lost
There’s nothing left in me but a fury so strong
I’ll snap any second
And an agape love
My only emotions left are frustration fury and love
and intense pain
What do I do
When all I want to do is hurt
Put my pain into you
Make you feel what I go through
And I can’t change
What have I done?
Take out my pain
On myself




Scream I’m Sorry

My frustration is hurting you
But it’s killing me
And my anger is ruining your life
But your rejection is hurting me
I’m longing to go back
To change from what is to what once was
But you refuse
And wallow in your guilt and hate
Once I stabbed you in the back
I slapped you and spit in your face
And I’m terribly sorry
Begging you to forgive me
You hold out don’t care anymore
Laugh at my pain
while inside yours is worse
We’ll take our secret to our graves
Fog is filling my senses
Mist is falling over my mind
You’ll die before forgiving me
because you can’t forgive yourself
What am I supposed to do?
Scream I’m sorry, cry
For what was lost
My only consolation being
the life inside of you
My child.




Last Relief

I’ve nothing left to feel
Nothing left to say
(no one to say it to)
I’ve felt all there is
Except remorse
And I have regrets
But there is no pardon
Tomorrow I will die
Your family asks for a ‘sorry’
I won’t give it
I’m not sorry
This past year I’ve been caged
And now they’ll kill me
For killing you
I can’t escape and I am bored
There is no relief and no parole
So I’m still locked up
a ‘madman’
a murderer
They judged and I am to die
Can’t they understand?
I guess not
But tomorrow I will die
Alone
My last relief




Dark Blue Eyes

Are you losing your mind?
I see you there
Why don’t you see me?
Am I invisible?
I want to help you
But you’re refusing to even look
notice my love
You’re going to gamble your life off
I’m begging you,
keep it
So I can care for you
You’re not content
I see through your dark blue eyes
Right into your soul
Please look back
Please don’t hurt yourself
You’re trying to be what you’re not
Slow down
‘Till you see past what you are
To what you could be.